I won’t lie, yesterday I was not feeling my happiest or most motivated. The main reason for this is my disappointment in the people I have around me. This seems like a major statement and it is. If I could just wipe the slate clean and move away from all I knew now; I would. I don’t know if anything is worse than believing in people and they prove you wrong, they leave you feeling as if you and what you’re working for is not important enough and as much as that’s OK; it doesn’t make it any less difficult. Then there are those who I feel have acted like everything they have done for me has been to benefit me when actually it benefited them. I think we’ve all been there with that one.
I know you might be thinking that this is a strange topic for #MyLookMyWay as it’s normally based directly on what I am wearing. However, of late I’ve been really looking at the direction of my blog and how I want to run it; coinciding with my magazine. Both platforms are a major part of me but I don’t want the content on each site to become too ‘samey'(OK, obviously that’s not a word but seriously stick with me; it’s about to get interesting!). I instead on my blog want to really diversify on the content and just have more fun with it. I want to have more fashion posts, more food posts, more opinion posts and more lists; yes, I definitely need more lists because let’s face it; who doesn’t like random lists. And, I will add an odd beauty and fitness related post in. (Now how’s that for diversity)
Let me just put it out there, I love Italian food but after trying Italian street food for the first time; I now love it more! I honestly love eating in places where the customer service is as good as the food.
You may not know this but I like to be toned and for one reason or another; whether it be down to sheer laziness and a combination of eating out too much (for reviews of course) not sleeping enough and working too many long hours; I was not as toned as I wanted to be in these pictures. Now since these images were taken; I have actually lost quite a lot of weight(this is mainly down to the fact that I am taking a short holiday in June and want to look epic in my bikini!) However, after looking through them; I considered not putting them out at all because I wasn’t looking the way I wanted to look.
The past few days have been explosive to say the least. I sat down with my mother and we literally ran through the past 7 years! What we fleshed out involved a great deal of soul searching and it wasn’t the easiest thing to do. We came to terms with our failures and we recognised and talked about the factors that contributed to our stresses. What was most profound was how clear I felt for the first time in ages.