It’s been a very long time that I have had this feeling but the past few weeks since reading a book with my mother by the phenomenal pastor, public speaker and author Joel Osteen titled ‘I Declare’. My life and my overall mindset has taken a major and momentous turn for the better.
Self-esteem is often seen as a confusing issue. It doesn’t always relate to things such as how popular you are or how you look but more so how you perceive and begin to appreciate yourself for who and what you are.
Is it crazy that it has taken me to reach the age of 31 to finally realise that I am not like everyone else, I am not where I ultimately want to be, my life isn’t as glitzy as the Kardashian’s and my Insta feed isn’t enviable and it’s actually 100% okay to be where I am, as I am because there is nothing more powerful and greater than being me, loving me and respecting my journey; because ultimately it’s my journey to take. I now feel at complete peace with myself and the mistakes that I have made. I respect that some of the decisions I have made have hurt others outside of myself and things have happened that I am not particularly pleased or proud of.
Let’s just get right into this. The past few weeks have been extremely challenging for me. I am a firm believer that we can (if we demonstrate enough strength of will) overcome anything life throws at us. However, sometimes and I mean sometimes things can become too much and you do feel like throwing in the towel. So many shitty things have presented themselves in my life that I can almost go as far as saying that I strongly considered stopping everything. It really is a dangerous when the actions and opinions of others can play such a detrimental effect on you; that your judgement is completed clouded.
I’ve been blogging since 2007! It feels so surreal typing this and realising that I have been writing for so long. I can honestly say however that I haven’t taken it as serious as I should have. Seeing as it is such a MAJOR thing and now thousands of bloggers/writers everywhere are making a living from doing what they love. In 2010, I started my blogzine/ezine In-spire LS Magazine and I honestly feel that it is finally where it needs to be and the direction is clear. I have a team of creatives working with me to help me take it to the next level and I feel confident in where it’s moving next.